is a terrible thing that there are some true
Christians that can't readily find fellowship in
a church. I can't. I know others who can't. These
people I refer to are very "in-touch"
with Christ and willing to serve.
problem? They are confused because they know of
few, if any people who can agree with them or
have enough understanding to converse or be of
help to each other. Another way of saying,
"no fellowship." They feel lost and
I leave that to you to decide "why." I
think I know but that is up to you to determine.
I am finished trying to make sense of it. If HE
wanted me to understand it, HE would have shown
me. Maybe HE will in time.
I understand your frustration but I don't know
what to do. I can only go so far with the people,
who are like me and suffer the same situation. I
have come to the conclusion that we cannot be
united in assembly. The Lord will not allow it. I
will ask you to try to tell me why? I gave up
trying to understand it.
It is as though God is doing with us... HIS
people... the same as HE did on the day of
"BABBLE" when HE confused the language.
I report this without any
understanding of my report.
Through www.john33.com ministry, I have had many
relationships with many people and always we
reach a divide. A point where we must part
company and go our own way. Strange isn't it? It
seems to be the will of God. HE brings together
TRUE Christians who know the truth and then seems
to say; "This is as far as it goes."
"Go your own way now." I have never
heard HIM say this to me but I feel that seems to
be the message.
I confess; it is frustrating that HE will not
tell me. Why will HE not tell us the things we
need to know, when we think we need it?
you are looking for is fellowship with
God-loving, Jesus-loving Christians you can
fellowship with and there ain't none! (excuse the
You are sincere and looking for answers and
support and HIS approval and love... why will HE
not tell you and deliver you? Why will HE not
just reveal a plan and purpose for you to follow?
I HAVE NO IDEA! YOU TELL ME.
I have even allowed myself to be vain enough to
think that if several of us who are called out of
the "world" and the worldly church,
might be strong enough to accomplish things that
are forbidden us to know. We are mortals and evil
by nature... Remember the things that God said
about the people who were building the great
tower and HE said "we had better confuse
them lest they accomplish too much."
(PARAPHRASED but you get the idea). Men are of
Satan and always capable of falling. Oh yes!
Jesus said it. "NO MAN IS GOOD, ONLY
GOD" I know - I know - we like to think we
are perfect Christians and every secret of the
Kingdom may be entrusted with us. Ridiculous
isn't it? But I hear from those kinds of folks.
That is the closest I can come to the answer.
I have seen this happen too many times!
Usually these individual relationships, between
my readers and me, get to a point that it seems
they must go on their own.
I ask myself and HIM; "If I were left there
in the friendship, would my opinion or comfort
that I may give them... not allow them to
expand... or... is it that my understanding is
limited and may interfere with a lesson HE will
teach them directly and more perfectly that I can
help them achieve? Or, would we jointly come
further than we are allowed, given our human
faults.... OR.... Were they snatched away because
they were not supposed to learn certain things? I
do not know! KEEP THAT THOUGHT IN MIND AS I WILL
came as our Savior. At least for those of us
whose names are written in The Lamb's Book of
Life. He was and is the test. Because many people
fail to receive HIM after having the opportunity,
they fail the test, therefore missing the
Kingdom. If you put that all together you will
come to ask if HE sent more people to hell than
to heaven. It appears so! He did tell the
followers on the Mountain, in HIS great Sermon On
The Mount, "That few will find the
path." He was speaking to those who were
looking and HE said few of those would find the
path to the Kingdom. That may come as a shock to
that thought in mind the next time you see
someone dismiss a servant of the Lord who is
trying to help them receive HIM and find the key
to the Kingdom.
There is a reason the Lord commanded me to begin
www.john33.com and there is a reason HE brings
certain people to me and then says; "this
far and no further."
We are unique! I can tell you that. We do all
share the common knowledge that our needs are
greater than the world and it's religions are
capable of delivering. They serve milk. We demand
meat. They compromise. We demand no compromise.
They teach false doctrine. We demand truth from
God and God alone.
It seems we share common traits but as on the day
of BABBLE, we are separated and if HE is still
the same, HE does it to prevent us from "TOO
MUCH." Too much what?
I guess it is because we are still human and
surely some would "spin off" and create
a 'human" church unto themselves. It may
lead into ego, vanity and sin that the scriptures
have clearly warned us. How many great preachers
have fallen? They start out with the right
attitude but the money, temptation and power
overcomes them. Maybe we are too good for that?
Remember? The tree in the middle of the Garden?
The Tree of Knowledge? The tree they ate of the
fruit? Remember the next tree, the Tree of Life?
HE banished man from the Garden so they could not
achieve the next level, the knowledge or power
that the Tree of Life would have provided. HE is
the same. Are His reasons the same? I don't know.
There is some reason we cannot know and be given
the ability to benefit from HIS all knowing
appears; HE feeds us as needed to serve HIS
purpose for us?
fall was because he knew too much, ego, vanity...
more than he could handle. Ego. Vanity.
Knowledge. All traps for mortal man. Mortal man
cannot be trusted with divine things of God. Not
as long as we wear these "earth suits"
and are capable of falling as was Lucifer, a
created angel... Adam, Eve and other creations.
that same category you can see why "A Rich
Man Cannot Enter The Kingdom." OR... why
gifted, gorgeous, Hollywood superstars fall and
usually serve Satan. TOO MUCH TO HANDLE! Things
and riches of this world are of Satan. The
prosperity doctrine, taught in the New Age,
popular church denominations deliver millions to
hell each year. They love their golden (money)
idols more than the wisdom that Jesus, James and
Peter teach. Hell awaits. It becomes a curse.
that why HE keeps us walking in faith? Is that
why we must learn patience? Is that why we must
I am shown things I do not publish. I wonder if
that is why? Things that are not easily
understood by me or a reader.
Even though it is lonely. Even though it means
tremendous suffering... different levels for each
of us unique servants. My level of suffering is
tremendous. I am not even allowed a friend or
the lighter side; I would be too strong for a
mere, mortal woman to tolerate me in the flesh :)
people, even proclaimed Christians, cannot
tolerate my truths. I don't even
like me at times.
If I were allowed to be surrounded by my friends
from www.john33.com and we were united, would I
begin to rely on these friendships and support,
rather than continually seeking HIM and HIS help.
Is that why you
are required to suffer and thirst? Surely our God
would and could deliver us if that would be good
for us... and HIS little ones.
Either there is a reason or HE is just cruel. HE
is the author of "tough love." Only the
"tough" in Christ, stand a chance.
What does that say about the happy little
followers that run around with their memorized
buzz phrases and memorized scriptures. Their
little clubs and church functions that serve
themselves and their needs. While people suffer,
they comfort one another. Starving, hurting
people of Christ suffer and not a hand from these
phony, self-serving clubs, called churches. Our
solid, scripture based guidelines are thought by
them to be fanatical and against their false
I bleed daily! I hurt worse than any of my
readers. I cry out for relief. I cry out for HIM
to bring me home. I do not like it here. Just
about everything I ever loved has been taken from
me. Is HE cruel? NO! There must be a reason.
this message skirts that reason?
In my life; HE showed me many things. HE healed
me many times. I used to feel HIS love. Most days
now, I do not. Most days (now) I even wonder if
HE remembers me? As we grow, more faith is
required. Some days I think it is more than I can
I THINK it is tough love?
I HOPE SO!
all, if it were easy and if I were constantly
reassured by HIM, it would require little to no
faith. So, please, if you are a "fair
weather" preacher who feels the urge to tell
me how wonderfully pleasant and rewarding it is
to be a Christian... save it for the unsuspecting
tithers in your fold. You know, the ones who
prefer a feel good doctrine of pleasantries. The
same who are probably taught the false
"rapture" doctrine and "Once Saved
of the realities of Satan-traps... back to the
I know HE loves me and I know it is for my
growth. As Elihu told JOB; "this suffering
was sent to you to keep you from falling into a
life of sin."
Is It that simple? I think so.
How much of this message applies to you? Go and
figure and let me know if you are shown anything